just missin some peeps

Missin the people that mean so much to me,
to be able to see, talk, listen,
to them one last time,
would mean the world to me!
how do i go on
when i lost one of my best friends
the person that always listened,
was never affraid to voice there oppion,
and tell you how it is
the person you didnt have to strive just for there approval
how and what is the best way to deal with that
explain to me why the person that loves so many is no longer here on earth
but the person that hates so many is still breathing.
in one way i am jelious why not me
but on the other why should i be so lucky to meet god at the golden gates
what have i done so far in my life to deserve it
i try and try to strive just by a long shot that when my time comes
i hope i was able to make him smile for things that i have done in my life.
am i winning the strugle or am i just starting.
for this being my resting place for now it sure is not a restful place
i am wore out, depressed ,stressed
and for why, why should i give them the "HUMANS" the satisfaction of fuckin me over. you don't and that is why i fight so hard each and every day.